Tuesday, April 28, 2015

Count the Omer 2015: Day 24

Day 24: Tiferet within NetzachSpirituality within Endurance
I have written about my conversion many times here. It is, after all, the reason I began blogging in the first place. One post in particular aligns perfectly with today's Omer reflection:
"I participated regularly in Jewish services, holidays, and study for over a year before it finally all clicked for me.  Looking back on it, it makes sense that I would only feel a connection to God through Judaism after becoming comfortable with it in all the other aspects I was exploring, but at the time it seemed like I suddenly felt closer to God out of nowhere."
You can read the entire post here, but my point today is that sometimes spirituality requires endurance. For years, I wanted to feel closer to God, to fully believe in something. I had connected on a logical level with Judaism long before I connected on a spiritual level and if I could have simply willed spirituality on myself, I would have. Instead, I stuck it out the long way, enjoying the parts of Judaism I had come to love and doing my best to wait patiently for the rest to come together.